I'm getting frayed at the edges. Rebecca tells me to attend to my needs, but my needs seem very petty and insignificant contrasted with what the family needs right now. What do I need? Some alone time. Time to sit down and write. Time to get drunk with a friend. All very personal, non-sharing stuff that puts me away from people, isolates me from the people who need my help right now. It's shame-inducing and I can't speak up, but then Rebecca gets upset because of my stony silence and emotional blockade. I'm not mature enough to know how these situations should be handled.
My laptop is now in the shop: fully backed up, it's now getting wiped. I hope that resolves this native iTunes conflict it's been suffering from. And now I get to explore life without a laptop. Guess I can start reading that stack of library books (background, below Bella).
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